Said I shouldn’t.
Fingering me.
Everything I did.
A litter of chewed knucklebones
I’ve spread them out over the
rectangular floor as regularly as
I can; so I can account for them.
Her hands are crossed over
her breasts and each holds
a feather; her face has no features
Have I come to beg
What do I wish — to be
judged?
Is it an accumulation
of what I’ve said, that
counts, that I’m counting
is it all alphabet and abacus
everything rhymed?
You still don’t have a face.
Suddenly she has the face of a
cat.
No that’s a different
goddess.
I tell you this
bloodthirsty
jaguar…
I don’t have any idea what my word is, I
mean fault. Is it a word or an act. The
whole thrill is ripping me apart
Inside these
words there’s nothing but a pumping
bloodsoaked…
but clearly, everything I said, did,
was a long shot
We didn’t hear a word
What have you ever heard?
Now I’m here — black-caped in a
chair. Animal staring at me
I sink into your disaffected
ambiance to name.
What emotional
charges
have been laid on me from
earliest times
and my own
earliest
resulting in the bone strewn carpet
I had to grow the dice
of accounting to your love; for
you made me speak to you
lovingly; or did I do that naturally
oh just, bloodthirsty face
who doesn’t have to understand.
I don’t know who I’m speaking to
is pushing me
Judgment maybe it’s when being
fragile I
hallucinate you best
I don’t want to use my name!
‘Where I was born we girls ran
free. and named ourselves,’
Justice says.
She may kill me,
it depends on whether she’s hungry
Copyright ©:
Alice Notley

A few random poems:
- Security by William Stafford
- Владимир Набоков – Простая песня, грусть простая
- The Promise of the Morning Star poem – Amy Lowell poems | Poems and Poetry
- John Milton – John Milton Poems
- The Passing Of Spring poem – Alfred Austin
- The Breast by Russell Edson
- Heavy Woman by Sylvia Plath
- The Last Breath of a Ship by Tri Tran
- Influence of Natural Objects by William Wordsworth
- A Thought by Robert Louis Stevenson
- Зинаида Александрова – Ветер на речке
- Dedication by Stephen Vincent Benet
- Ольга Седакова – Как упавшую руку
- The Sun Of The First Day by Rabindranath Tagore
- A Jewish Cemetery In Germany by Yehuda Amichai
External links
Bat’s Poetry Page – more poetry by Fledermaus
Talking Writing Monster’s Page –
Batty Writing – the bat’s idle chatter, thoughts, ideas and observations, all original, all fresh
Poems in English
- Ольга Седакова – Сновидец
- Ольга Седакова – Сказочка
- Ольга Седакова – Сказка
- Ольга Седакова – Selva selvaggia
- Ольга Седакова – С нежностью и глубиной
- Ольга Седакова – Путешествие волхвов
- Ольга Седакова – Прощание
- Ольга Седакова – Прибавления к “Старым песням”
- Ольга Седакова – Преданья о подвижниках похожи
- Ольга Седакова – Последний читатель
- Ольга Седакова – Плач
- Ольга Седакова – Первая тетрадь
- Ольга Седакова – Памяти поэта
- Ольга Седакова – Памяти одной старухи
- Ольга Седакова – Ни темной старины заветные преданья
- Ольга Седакова – Неужели, Мария, только рамы скрипят
- Ольга Седакова – Несчастен
- Ольга Седакова – Музыка
- Ольга Седакова – Московские картинки
- Ольга Седакова – Маленькое посвящение Владимиру Ивановичу Хвостину
More external links (open in a new tab):
Doska or the Board – write anything
Search engines:
Yandex – the best search engine for searches in Russian (and the best overall image search engine, in any language, anywhere)
Qwant – the best search engine for searches in French, German as well as Romance and Germanic languages.
Ecosia – a search engine that supposedly… plants trees
Duckduckgo – the real alternative and a search engine that actually works. Without much censorship or partisan politics.
Yahoo– yes, it’s still around, amazingly, miraculously, incredibly, but now it seems to be powered by Bing.
Parallel Translations of Poetry
The Poetry Repository – an online library of poems, poetry, verse and poetic works